When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight. ~Kahlil Gibran
As I sit in my study and try to think of something to write, I stare at the bookshelf next to my desk. It is my “bragging” wall. On it I have placed books written by all my dear friends at the Heart of Dixie. There is Linda, LJ, Kim, Lynn, Kira, Melanie, Rhonda, Lyn and Beverly. If someone comes to visit and sees the study, I proudly point out that these are people who are important to me. And yes, I brag that I actually know them.
Today was to be a special day for me. I was looking forward to getting Beverly’s new book “Dead by Morning.” I have read all of her “Dead by” series and I love the characters from the Powell agency. Now I find, like Jean said, how am I to read it? Beverly is gone and I can’t seem to find the same enthusiasm. Oh, I shall buy the book and dutifully place it on the bragging wall but it will not be the same. I won’t be able to pour through it and then tell Beverly how very much I enjoyed it. She is gone and the joy of reading her book has also gone.
As Gibran said, I am truly weeping for the loss of such a dear and wonderful person who gave me such delight. Her writing made me want to strive to be a better writer. But it was her grace and her charm that gave me more. I shall miss her laughter and her steel. She was the epitome of what we all wish to be – successful, brilliant but mostly just a good person. She made sure to speak to everyone, ask about them and their lives, and make them feel special. Who would not miss that?
And yes, I grieve because one more reason to feel delight has been taken. But I shall look in my heart and remember…